Today I did something I have never had to do before in my entire life ... I had to go take a drug test, for the new job, of course, but it is still weird. You would think that as a brand-new mom, which the company knows I am, I wouldn't have to take one, but I guess there are enough women out there that being a new mom won't stop them from taking something, so I have to take one. I do not want to sound judgemental or superior or anything like that, I just have never understood taking drugs or mind-altering chemicals or whatever you want to call them and I never have. In fact, I have never smoked a cigarette or even been drunk for that matter. It's just not my thing. I enjoy a good drink now and then, just not to excess.

It's werid, but having to take a drug test made me feel dirty(???), (I don't know if dirty is the right word or not, but it is the only one I can think of right now). I feel like I am starting off this new job on the wrong footing simply because of this drug test. I know that I am clean and always have been, and that I never would and never will go to work impaired, not when you do want I do. You do not work with chemicals or microbials with anything but a clear and clean mind. I guess I feel like my integrity is in question and that bothers me, does that make any sense to anyone???